Kyol's Journal

8:53pm: Holy Shit!
I have not posted in FOREVER. Many things have happened, and in no time flat, you'll know all of them that I can remember. Let's get started, shall we?

My dad's pizza shop closed. I gave it my best, but it was already doomed. Owners are too busy with other more profitable ventures. Makes sense, so I'm done with pizza. Well, I'm done with making pizza. Helped my dad's company installing flooring, but they don't need me either, so I'm jobless. Enjoying the free time, though.

Next order of business: College. I plan on going back, pending the answer to my appeal. Cross your fingers for me. Anyone know a good place to get a loan from?

Christmas is coming! got presents for my family for the first time in pretty much ever. It's nice having money to spend on them. I can't wait to see their faces on Christmas.

I have been PC GAMING lately. I know. Up until Portal I hadn't finished a PC game in like.. since I can remember. *shudder* anyway; I finished Portal, (short as shit!) Half Life 2, Episode 1, working on Episode 2, and I plan on moving on to try and beat whatever I can get my damn hands on that excites me. I am a gaming machine. Want to gift me a game on Steam you think I should beat? kyle[dot]ninja[at]gmail[dot]com is the place to send it.

Next!

I have a new woman in my life. Not newly in my life, but rather than just my best friend, she's now my girlfriend. _ashuri_ She's amazing, and I love her very much! ^_^ She's coming with me for Christmas Eve and She, Boter, Steph, and I are going to see the Trans-Siberian Orchestra January fourth! w00t! of course having now updated myself with everyone's LJ entries, I now know that Boter's got teeth to be pulled that day. Touch luck, mate. Hopefully you'll be giddy instead of pain-y.

Well, I think that's all for now.. Happy Holidays everyone!

9:56am: Update
So, I'm still pissed. Drinking that whole weekend was nice, alcohol makes me giggly. I moped for a while, and then the friday before labor day, I reached the peak of my emotion, and it became a seething rage. Not healthy by any means, and when the guy that she's been seeing came into the office that day (he works for my dad) I got up int his face and threatened him with death, and was ready to kick his ass with adrenaline/anger muscles. And I would have, if my dad didn't pull him into his office and tell him who knows what, then pulled me in there after and said "kick his ass if you want, but not here." So I sat in my chair and shook with anger for a while. I got out of work at noon that day so we could go to camp near Canada on Black Lake for Labor Day Weekend. No cell signal, no internet, nothing but quiet cabin and campfire. Well, I Drove up with an employee of my dads (we were having a party up there all weekend) whom I'd worked with a number of times, and on the way I told him a bit about what was going on. He talked me out of my anger and essentially calmed me down in the way only a heart-to-heart with another guy can. It helped tremendously, and then the whole weekend I did nothing but sit, eat, watch the campfire, play with the kids, and go fishing. Man, I needed that. One night people from another camp brought up what they called 'The Recipe'. It tasted great, and made you piss drunk after one glass. Long story short, all the guys, including me, ended up wrestling one another for shits and giggles. What a night. Came back Monday afternoon relaxed and ready to go, and Tuesday my sister had her surgery for her cancer. It went well, and she's doing pretty well, too. Wednesday my boss called from Vegas (he's at a trade show) and said I have the day off because there's nothing for me to do, and I spent that whole day playing WoW and Metroid Prime 3: Corruption. I caught the Apple special Event, and man, they did good things. -200 bucks on the iPhone, the 4gb model got nixed, new nanos, iPod is now iPod Classic, updated design, bigger drives, and the coolest thing of all, the iPod Touch. *drools* 8 or 16 gm flavors, and it's the iPhone sans phone and camera. Sexy. Even mom said "you're right, that is sexy looking." Came into work today, stress-free, totally relaxed, and I feel great. While I'm not over her, I've accepted that I may never be with her again, and that might be for the best. I'm sitting here looking at my bank account wondering if I should preorder the iPod Touch, too. A little gift from me to me. I did that with the external hard drive, MX Revolution and Metroid too, but who's counting.
Anyway, a wrap-up is in order. I'm not busy at work today (as you can tell by this post) and I'm really having a pretty swell day so far *knock on wood* My idea for the LAN at my house failed, I never really had time, and if nothing else, I'm going to FragFest just to hang with my friends, maybe play some DoTA. I don't play games that much anymore, especially not competitively. I haven't even really touched my PC in a few months, except to play Guild Wars: Eye of the North for like an hour. That may change once I reformat, I'm really sick of Vista. An x86 version of OSX would be amazing, but we know that's not happening any time soon. My stress levels are low, I'm ready to stare life in the eyes again, and make the best of the days instead of worrying about a childish girl that's not worth my time.

until next time, I bring you the Algorithm March.

3:06pm: Huge Fucking Rant!: Fall edition
I'm so incredibly fed up with women.
My girlfriend dumped me a few weeks ago- for a guy she met online. He lives in another state, and she texts and calls him constantly. Apparently she's more attracted to him than she is to me. We dated for 5 years, on and off, and this time we were doing exceptionally well. She went to California, as she does every summer, and while there became a snobby little bitch. She decided that I don't say enough sweet things, and I don't buy her enough things, and.. get this- Her BIGGEST issue with me is that I'm 'Immature' and I play video games and watch anime, which are obviously both for little kids, she says. And she singled out Pokemon. Said it was dumber than those chinese cartoons I watch. She said we need a break, and we should see other people. I disagreed, and it didn't matter. I then went on to my PC, and opened Firefox. She had made Myspace my homepage, and her information was already filled out, so I helped myself and decided I would leave her a message in her mail by mailing it from her to her, and when in her mailbox discovered a number of messages from the guy from another state. The first one I read had something to do with a spat they were having, I continued on, another about it, the next one was one from her that said something to the effect of "I'm uploading the rest of the pics now, I'll be on later, I love you baby". I then started to shake. Next one, similar. I miss you, I wish you were here, I love you, etc." I really started to freak out then. I opened the next one and I lost it. In front of my eyes flashed a picture addressed to the kid, of her, naked, taking her own picture in the mirror. Full fucking body shot. And then another note: "I have more, I'll send them later". I proceeded to walk outside and lose it totally. I cried and paced around for a few minutes, and I called her about it all. She denied the picture, then I told her I had screenshots(I'll spare you) and she stopped denying it totally, instead said her sister sent it. Great excuse, but if you don't want people seeing a picture of you naked, don't you think you wouldn't take it to begin with? It was intended for that exact purpose and I'm sure there are plenty more floating around. How could someone tell two people at the same time that they love them?! Granted, she never saw the kid in real life, but it is still mental and emotional cheating. Even as I write this, weeks later, I'm shaking and about to cry. I can't take this, I want to hate her but I still love her with all my heart. More recently, we talked a bit and were a bit better, (slightly) and when I got kicked out of my house 2 weeks ago, one day her place was the only place I could go and her mom called me and asked me to stay with them. Brittany hugged me, said things would be okay, and was generally comforting. That night, I went home with her, and sat on her couch, and her phone would not stop ringing and beeping. Text from the guy, phonecall from the guy, phonecall from another guy... It made me upset but between calls I tried to talk to her about 'us'. She kept saying she needs time and blah blah and the phone rang as I was talking to her, and she picked it up, interrupted me, and started talking to the guy. I asked her if we could talk without distractions and she grunted, told him she had to go and we talked more. Same thing, interrupted. She picked it up again. She kept doing it and I gave up. We tried to talk one more time that night and she ended up screaming in my face because I was making her upset by explaining that I love her very much and if both of us will try harder, we can make it work. I ended up crying all that night. Fast forward to more recently. She still works at my dad's pizza shop, I try talking to her and she's obviously just trying to play nice, phone still beeping constantly. Now for today: it's her day off, she comes in with a friend, I say hi to her friend, her friend looks at me funny. Now I've known her friend for a while, and used to get along. I say hello again. Same thing. I then jokingly say "too good to talk to me now?" and she gives me a 'psh' and looks away.

WHAT THE HELL DID I DO TO ANYONE?!
REALLY?!

I'm really speechless about it all. I cry constantly, I feel like I can't breathe whenever i see her or think about her... and I tried seeing someone else, going to a movie, etc, and all I could think about is her. What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm drinking myself into oblivion tonight and tomorrow, and I hope it numbs the pain.
:(

1:00pm: Changes, changes.
My life is changing considerably. I'm not worried about school anymore. I didn't get back in, but I've decided that it's not really what I wanted anyway. I'm working now, going to get my license soon, and finally do shit with my life. College really held me back from doing what I needed to do, which was get out there and get shit done. I'm saving up money and plan on starting a small business building/maintaining computers, because I always liked it so much. I'm taking at least this semester off, and I may not end up coming back, but it's for the best. I need to do what I want, not what's been expected of me for so long. I'm a lot happier than I was, and I think I really needed to get my shit in order, and i finally did, I think. I know some of you are going to be sad when you don't see my smiling face next semester, but just know thatI'm a lot happier taking care of my liife on my own terms. I haven't updated in a while due to deciding shit, but all is well now. In non school-related news, I've ordered the CycloDS card for the Nintendo DS, and it plays all downloaded games, plays music, movies, and eBooks, and was really cheap (50 bucks). I'm planning on buying a CycloWiz for my Wii soon too, for the same reason (burned games) and finally have the games I couldn't afford before. Yar har, fiddle-dee-dee, I am a pirate.

2:06am: SASFSGDF!!!!
I am so drunk.

This shit took like forever to type, you have no idea.

Fireball and vodka ftw.

4:31pm: ;_;
I've had it. Totally had it. One of my suitemates informed me this morning at breakfast that the suitemate you've heard so much about has done it again. He informed me that my roommate, he, and I are to clean the garbage from the main room by the end of tonight. The other suitemate told the RA that everyone elses garbage has been in the room for ages and is stinking the place up and it's disgusting, he wants it gone, none of it is his, etc. My non-evil suitemate is never freakin' here, so it's not his. I have a single bag of papers and boxes out there, and the rest is his. There is a takeout box containing chinese food that has since turned black and rotten, a half full pizza box, and various other food things. I asked the evil suitemate to help me (not-evil refuses ot do anything, as it really is less than 5% his) and he yelled at me. A lot. He screamed about all the food and how there's no way it's his or his girlfriends for various reasons. I explained calmly that I eat chinese food at the buffet. I have never ordered anything but little caesars while at school, and the pizza boxes aren't mine, and that the other things that are in there include a broken plastic fishtank (his) and other stuff not belonging to me. I saw the RA at breakfast, and she informed myself and suitemate that we're to clean it up, there's been a complaint. If we don't she comes over and watches us do it. My roommate is gone for the weekend, will probably not be back until late tonight, and with my not-evil suitemate not being significantly to blame, I'm the only one that' being forced to do it. I can either do it tonight or wait until the RA makes us (me) do it.

I hate it here, I hate it here so so much...

5:40pm: Good days, and people are fucked up.
This is an odd sort of thing.
Mondays are normally made of shit and tired.
Today is instead going exceedingly well, and improves by the minute.
I woke up early and ate breakfast.
I got a b- on my second paper in my class.
I handed in every homework that was due in my Computer Science course.
I am floating on air.
Very few things are going to be able to ruin my day.
My girlfriend came home from Paris last night, and I'll see her this weekend, I'm excited
about that, and I feel that we're getting along better than we have in ages.
I've got most of today to do whatever I want, because (other than math class and a short paper)
I got everything else done.
I should go to math. I may or may not, I expect to pass, there's no way to really study for it.
In other news: Suitemate keeps spreading weird rumors about me around the school.
He seems to think I'm lusting after his ex-girlfriend (whom he mistreated terribly) when I rarely
if ever talk to her, and we're just friends. He's been taking my Wii and making me Mii all screwed up;
It's not a huge problem but it's a pain to change it back. He also adds Jesus (why, I dunno) and his ex-girlfriend
to my Wii, also adding memos like "you want to touch my body" addressed to me from "her" and that's also really, really weird.
I certainly can't explain it.
Another thing: I just went to the bathroom, and I saw my number next to "for a good time call" and then
"ask for (his ex's name)". I managed to wipe it off mostly, but really, what the fuck is wrong with
the kid? I told him and his current girlfriend to shut the fuck up one day when they were screaming and
laughing and stomping through the dorm for an hour, and they think I was being the bad one.
It was maybe a bit harsh, but if you were there... you would agree totally. So now, because of this,
we don't talk anymore, and he's got some vendetta against me and does things like that to me. The other day
he put rotting chinese food on my dresser. I don't get the kid. I totally avoid him in every way, but still
he continues to pursue this. Well, fuck him, he can't ruin my day! I'm living with Boter and Eric Button next
semester in S4 and I couldn't be happier. I'm glad I get to be around people I get along with and can have fun
with. They're both like me; crazy with good intentions and a mild nature. Chaotic Good. We share interests and
I couldn't think of a better bunch to be with. We'll get with someone else, Boter's new roommate, and since we're
in quiet housing, I think that the person should be relatively mild too, and not even close to the crap
that I've had to deal with my first two semesters. I am not a huge fan of today's weather: Chilly, slush everywhere,
but who cares, the spring will come soon, I'm sure of it. :)

3:36am: LAN, Love, and Lousy days
What a day. LAN party started, lot of fun so far. a ton of Warcraft 3, some Wii Sports and Super Smash Brothers Melee, I'm bad at everything, so I don't expect to win prizes, but it's still fun. ton of people here. Girlfriend broke up with me, ruined my mood for a few hours, but I'm feeling okay as of now. Part of that is probably because my body is running on 100% caffiene right now. Everyone here insists that I go have casual sex and do whatever I want, but who knows what's in store for me. I also have been feeling sick for 3-4 days, and I'm doing my best to fight it off, but it's not going well. I hope to be better tomorrow, have a better day.

Maybe?
Please?

7:13pm: Rats!
I went and bought myself a Rat yesterday! He's adorable, but absolutely terrified of me. He should warm up to me in a day or two, I would imagine. Not supposed to have them in school, but it really helps morale. Named him Einstein because it's Einsteins birthday (also Pi day). I thought it was a good idea :P My mom will never accept him into the house, she thinks she's allergic to freakin' everything with hair, except dogs. Curious, that. Meh, I'm probably going to have to leave him with someone for the summer so I don't get screamed at. Any kind hearts out there?

Well, time to do my homework.

11:19am: Freaking worst week ever. And it's only monday morning.
I hate this week. It's already fucking me over, hard, and I've barely started my day. Today, a five page paper due, that has no real topic, and is so open-ended that I can't seem to get it long enough. Damn. After this, I have to write a program in C, not too bad, but even after that, I'll be needing to write a two-page paper and an evaluation of a bunch of people I don't know that presented in class last week. Great. Fantastic. I can do it, but I'm going to die a little inside. Tomorrow, I can sleep after class, to try and get back what I lost last night and this morning, but my suitemate(s) are so loud that it should be totally useless for me to even try. In better news. I'm willing to bet that I'll do well enough this semester to work at the AFRL. I'm doing well in CS, and I think that aside from this stupid philosopy class, I'll get a's or b's, which should be enough. If it isn't? I'm totally fucked and my entire career as a computer programmer will go down the drain as I will get completely and utterly pwnd out of a job, and probably never get the permanent position I seek, thus rendering college useless to me. I am a little ray of sunshine this morning. Dammit.

10:21am: What the crap is wrong with people?
Why is it that some people think they own the world? Expect others to bow down to their every whim, and don't listen to anything but their own inner voices, constantly decide to take over whatever it is they deem nessecary.. I have a suitemate like that. And he's getting on my nerves, along with his insessantly annoying girlfriend (who made him this way). I love the kid, I do, but she's eating his brain, and he likes it. Who he was when we were so close is long gone, and it bothers me to no end. We used to hang out all the time, and have fun, and now everything he tries to do as fun is either really dumb or terribly cruel. I know I've changed, too. But I have let positive influences surround me and shape who I am, making me a better person. I didn't let some woman annex my life and pull it into her own sick mold.

So, the other day, Saturday, I think, they were running around and screaming and laughing like idiots for like 40 minutes, and I finally snapped and shouted SHUT THE HELL UP! You would have too, certainly, but I got confronted and asked if I was 'okay' and if i was feeling alright. No, I'm not. I feel awful that the guy I would have liked to live with is dead, and replaced by a fool. I feel awful that he met her and let himself become her host, and she sucked his brain dry. But instead of saying that, I said I'm fine. I lied to avoid a conflict, typical me. I felt good last night for a few hours, considering that it was my roomates birthday and we decided to watch Bleach and drink until we couldn't feel feelings. *sigh* only a few days left until I can go home. Wish me luck.

10:53am: It's cold, it's snowy.. Why am I in class?
Bleugh. Teacher talking about the class schedule so far all throughout the class. What is the point of all this? Really, I'd go ahead and say that I do NOT want to be in school much longer. I think I'm going to need a few days to myself, to be able to drink tea and just stare at the wall in silence, something impossible in my building. I love the people that surround me in my every day life, but it's nice to be able to relax and be alone every so often. Last night I was in the worst mood I've been in in months, and there was really no reason whatsoever to it. Sounds like I need a vacation. In other school-related news, I'm doing well in my classes, generally enjoying them, and I hope to get a good GPA this semester, I need it to cut my shitty grade last semester. Need a 2.0 for the year to stay working at the AFRL this summer. If I don't, I'm out about 3 grand in paychecks, and that's not something I want to give up. Sigh.

11:31am: Second semester, second chances
Well, I am sitting in class, and it's finally hit me. I have a new roomate, that I GET ALONG WITH. I have a new slate on the secomd semester, and the classes actually are interesting to me. I have a second chance at this whole college thing. Yeah, I bombed the first semester. I had so much stress, that any sort of thought was interrupted by some form of negative energy in my life. You would have bombed too. I have a very positive outlook on the future of this semester, and It's given me a reason to look up and smile for the first time in a while. I have really cut down on gaming, especially Guild Wars, and I think I'm becoming exponentially more productive. So basically, good news all around. I'm looking to visit some friends tonight, enjoy myself, and then some back and start my homework that's not due for a week. Not at all my usual discipline. Previously it had been my brilliant idea to wait until the last minute. Maybe I'm finally becoming more mature and realizing the reality of responsibility. Enough for now, It's nearly time to go. Conclusion? Two thumbs way,way up for me. :)

12:33pm: Morning migraines bring thoughtfullness.
So, I got up, whole head is killing me, so I took some analgesics and got in the shower.
I got dressed and my head was still killing me, but I'm sitting here and it's stimulating my brain.
I decided to make a list of things that come out of my head, in no sort of order, for your entertainment.

I always wanted to be a Boyscout, but when I actually finished Cub Scouts, and became a Boyscout, I was stuck with the local
troop who's leaders did the opening ceremony for the meetings, then played hackey-sack until the meeting was over.
I never advanced a rank or got a badge.

Metallica isn't good anymore.

It seems that ever since my sister got confirmed, she's been a heinous bitch. Coincidence?

Iceman doesn't get his signature ice slide technique until he becomes level 17 in Marvel Ultimate Alliance. Total bullshit.

I totally raided the Christmas box that we packed for the Canadians last year. Thanks for the purple dice and the Megadeth DVD.

I never finish watching anime. I have seen about a quarter of the episodes of most shows.

I'm pissed off because in my most current relationship, I had to break up with her because I realized that we
aren't friends anymore, simply lovers, and that is not something I find healthy.

The food at SUNY IT gives me the shits, but is generally pretty tasty.

Every woman that I know well and think I could have an amazing relationship with always tells me that I'm just
the type of best "friend guy", and not someone they'd want to date.

The Spoils > Magic: The Gathering

I've recently lost most of my interest in PC gaming. It's not because of the Wii, it's simply due to the fact that
they're all becoming so damned similar to the same shit I've played the past 5 years, that it's just not worth it.

Apple should release a PC version of OSX.

I drink a glass of Mountain Dew with every meal. I think that's probably not good.

Quaker Oats are amazing. I have a tube of them on my desk at this very moment.

I need to do laundry. I'm wearing my last pair of undies.

My friends mean a lot to me, and although I have a lot of friends, the ones that really mean a lot to me
know exactly who they are.

Eh, I guess that's it for now, but I might update later today.

2:32pm: A most terrific update
Well, It's been a while, and for good reason. Much has gone on in the past few weeks, and I'll inform you all of the important things.

I got a Wii after sitting in a metal chair in the garden center of Walmart for 16 hours. All the release titles I've
tried so far have been excellent (Twilight Princess FTW!) the Virtual Console works like a dream, and Wii Sports makes me sweat.

Thanksgiving went as well as could have been expected: Sat down to dinner, just my immediate family, argued, shouted, ate, and went our separate ways.
There has been much, much worse, so that was a successful family experience in my opinion.

Saw the Steve and the Josh, and thoroughly enjoyed seeing them again. Josh's visit was brief, and I stayed with Steve for the last few days of my vacation.

And now for the crap I could do without.

My douche bag roommate has been getting stoned every day, and acting like a total buffoon, and my stress levels were down to almost zero until he
returned to the room from his break late Sunday night, at which point I noticed that I tensed up and became uncomfortable again.

My girlfriend and I are having serious issues; I'm considering being alone for a while. Long story.

And lastly, I have a bunch of work to do, and seemingly not enough time to get it all done.

But, all this being said, I'm still feeling rather well, and can't wait until the end of the semester and a nice long
break from the same routine. I fully intend to visit as many people as possible for as long as possible during break,
and will try to organize some sort of holiday party for everyone to mingle and just have a good time.
Maybe we'll have a LOTR marathon this time, another opportunity for Boter to molest Chompy, and maybe another Heathenmas celebration?
Comment about what you think of it all, I'll try to get in contact with everyone about it soon.

*sigh* Only two weeks.

3:18pm: So, I'm still writing these damned papers. One is up to three pages long, and is due tomorrow, and the other is non-existent and due Friday. Every day I worry I'm going to fail out of college, and end up being a mailman or something. The last paper I wrote would have gotten me an A+ and a gold star at VVS, and here it got me a 50% and a ton of red ink about lack of this and lack of that. I don't understand how I can spend so much time on something, be so proud of it, and fail miserably. And algebra class is freakin' murder. The teacher might as well be a mime! He's so boring, I can rarely stay awake, and when I do, he covers more in one day than I'm used to learning in a week. It makes me feel like a total idiot, to have to hand in quizzes blank, or filled with numbers that are simply me trying to find out how to do the damned problem. I'm not happy about either of these. And the other two classes are practically a joke to me, I could do them in my sleep. Why the steep contrast? I could stand having 4 moderately hard classes, I really could. but 2 simple and 2 ridiculously insane are not my idea of a good time. (man, I can't stop bitching lately, can I?) I'm changiny my major to Computer Science because the math is too hard, and CS needs much, much less of it. Eh, I guess I've stalled long enough, I should get back to the paper O'doom. Then maybe I'll get to start the other paper. It upsets me that I can't play Guild Wars Nightfall much, probably not really until the end of the semester, but damnit, I gotta do this shit.

Anyone want to write one for me?

4:46am: Holy crap, I can't concentrate!
I have two papers due in the next week. Neither are more than 5% done. I have the word 'about' written in the body of one, and a few phrases describing a haiku in the other. Normally this wouldn't be much of a problem, just get to it, finish them, then enjoy myself. Unfortunately my roommate makes most homework and merrymaking impossible. Example: Last night, I opened my Engineering book, and began to read quietly. The room was nearly silent except for the faint hum of my heatsink. My roommate is sitting in the other side of the room, watching Family Guy with headphones on. What a wonderful opportunity. I continue to read, and in a few minutes I remember why I had never had any success reading in our dorm before. HA! HA HA! THAT IS SO AWESOME, HAHAHA! disrupts me from my reading. No, I take that back. It nearly makes me drop my book, and I jump a bit. Ok, it's funny, let's move on. Resume book. Repeat of above, but louder. At this point I decide to put down the book and wait for the episode to finish. It never does. Every few minutes, loud laughter and ridiculous comments. I go in the other room in the suite, and it's no better. One of them asks me to play Warcraft 3 (It's approaching one am at this point), and the other can't wait to tell me about his most recent paper that he's decided to write that will not only be nonsensical, but also four times the minimum length. His professor actually reads that shit. Yikes. Anyhow, one is ranting, one is begging, and from my room, excited giggles. I decide 'fuck it' and go to bed. Pillow over my head, I make an attempt to sleep. It's finally quiet and I can relax. I roll over, and just as I begin to drift off, (I assume) another hilarious punchline makes my head asplode. I end up staring at the ceiling, wondering when it will end, and it finally does, about three am. Why? Why do people like him end up with people like me? I like quiet, I like books, I like tea. I enjoy going for walks and watching the leaves fall. He likes marijuana, beer, peeing on trees, and frankly just being a totally disrespectful asshole. How is that fair? And I will go ahead and mention that only one of us requested him on their suitemate request form, and it was certainly not me. No, I can thank Jake for that one. Of course, he got the cool Jewish kid. And as I sit here typing, the laughing is beginning again, and it's all I can do not to commit seppuku right now. Can anyone spare some peace and quiet? I could use some, as this shit is driving me out of my mind. At this rate, I might as well kiss my free time goodbye. Library anyone?

11:37pm: Random thoughts, and fun with the Ashley
So, why is it that whenever I get my haircut done professionally (it's been a while) that it's usually by a decent-looking female, and the shampoo they always do makes me feel how I imagine my dog does when I scratch that spot on his belly. It's like, not arousal, but it's like, well Ash is telling me it's a 'Mind Orgasm'... whatever. Anyways, It's interesting, and you leave wondering if you can take the hairdresser home and have her wash your hair every morning. Maybe it's just me. So how did I get to this thought, you ask? Well, I was messing with my hair and Ash said something about fauxhawks and how she could be a hairdresser, and she proceeded to gel my hair into a failed fauxhawk, and then after trying again, discovered a new hairstyle for me. You don't have to tell me, I know I'm boring as hell, but if you didn't care, you wouldn't be reading this, now would you. Anyway, between random discussions, DS playing, knitting, and hair gel, I got nothing done. Typical Kyle. I managed to mark the important parts of the book I was supposed to read, so I can manage to scrounge some notes tomorrow morning. Another quick note: Tetris DS is pretty awesome, And both Ash and I got all the items from the Acorn Festival in Animal Crossing: Wild World! w00ts! Alright, I guess that for this update, except to mention that my weekend went well, enjoyed myself, had some good stress relief in the form of authentic mexican food, purchasing Tetris DS, and having the first good full saturday sleep-in since I've been at school. Wheeo.

8:53am: I are returned!
After giving up on this thing totally, Ashley convinced me that writing every day in an online journal can be fun. And she better be right. :P So, that being said, I have a rant all bottled up. Earlier this morning, I get out of bed, bladder cramps, I gotta go. I go into the bathroom, and of course, the one time I really feel the need to go, someone's in there. I knock, it's (name removed). He proceeds to get out, remain bare-assed, and stick his head out the door. I ask if I can go, and explain that it's an emergency. What does he do but tell me that I can hold it just fine, and shuts and locks the door. What the fuck is that? So for the next FIFTEEN MINUTES I sat in my room almost to the point of shitting myself, when finally he moseys on out and decides that it's my turn. Who in their right mind doesn't have an ounce of courtesy? And here's another thing I hate about him. Every goddamned morning, he brings his stupid-ass girlfriend into the suite (and it's never at a decent hour, usually before nine) and she talks loudly, and they laugh loudly, and he plays music, and they overall have no sense of other people around them. It's like either they don't give a shit or just are totally oblivious that anyone else could possibly need sleep too. Who the hell do they think they are? And another thing. The rest of the guys in my suite don't really care about anything that has ot do with me either. Every night that they decide is a good night for them to be loud and obnoxious until 2am, is just that, regardless of what I am doing, you know, like needing to go to class at nine am. But at least they're nice guys about it, and try to join me in! EVEN WHEN I AM ALREADY IN BED. "Hey Kyle, come watch a movie with us!" (obviously noting that I'm in bed, nearly asleep) "Come on, it's (movie title)!" And I can't believe that (name removed)'s roomate sleeps through all their morning shit. Ah, but when they need quiet time, they get it. But fuck Kyle. And while we're on the subject of fucking, I have another good story. They started to date, and the same day, they were forcing me to play loud music to drown out the... sounds, and pretty much it happens consistently whenever she's here. And it's not like there is anywhere else in the world to fuck, just in this suite, when I'm present and trying to get shit done. Convenient, no? Let's just say that if I can I'm going to have a wee bit o' the change in my suitemate preference if this continues. Hell, I'd live with the smelly kid as long as he's courteous.

In other news, A New York Yankee apparently lost his will to live after not making it to the postseason, and rammed his plane into a building in a most terrorist fashion. What silly people. Baseball is supposed to be a fun thing you do in your backyard not this corporate billion dollar thing it is now. That's why I don't watch sports.

Meh, I guess I'll play Animal Crossing DS until class. It is, afterall, the Acorn Festival.
Wee Cornimer!

12:04am: Finally did it. I gave in.
Well, 'Everyone else is doing it' so I got myself one of those newfangled journals. I have a blog, But nobody visits it, and I don't post on it anymore. I wonder, considering it's midnight and I'm running on caffiene alone, If I can even maintain a thought long enough to finish writing this entry.

Uh..

Well, I guess this was more or less a very poor idea.
I'm going to go see If I can't get some sleep and have some.. Stuff.
To put... You know, in here.
And stuff.